Stars

As I lay my head upon his shoulder
Surrounded by the silence
I look up, up into the darkness
I see stars in remembrance of our ancestors
And I wonder..

Oh tell me father
How did they made it?
Through better and worse
How did they do it?
Cause I feel cursed..

My words, my thoughts
I put them down on paper
And I wonder, wonder why
Why do we fail this life?

So father tell me
Is life just a game?
The life we live
And the love we give
Why do we destroy our purpose of life?

Through better or worse
I guess those words mean nothing
Empty promises, thats what it is!
Love, love became our weapon of self destruction

I lay my head upon his shoulder
And before I fall
I look up to heaven, to the stars 
Father,  I hope someday I'll get the chance ..
.. To understand

And I will write you again...

Growing up in the shadows of society

Going back to the time where my dreams meant so much

Where the world was mine

And they could not hold me back

The time I could not wait to dream again

Going back to the moment

Where they taught me to be a figure in society

A world where daydreams even dreams

Were for the weak

Going back to the moment

Where they told me I could not make it

I was wrong and too much me

Those retards, our so called society, could not shape me

Going back to the moment where I lost a hero

Where I lost you

Living this life without your existence

All I could do was blame myself

Going back to the time

Where I home was a battlefield

Where I was afraid of losing you

Wide awake, never got the chance to dream

Living in fear, fear for my dreams & fear for this god damn reality

Going back to the time

Where I almost lost you

Tears running over your face

In that moment I met my demon

I was able to kill

Going back to the time

Where I was truly lost

Days were filled with fear and anxiety

You dug your own grave and  buried a man which could be my hero

And I started from scratch with everyone one I loved

Living day by day

Going back to the time

Where our eyes first met

You helped me get through

But then you broke me into million pieces

Going back in time  

Where you were my guiding light

You lead me to a crossroad

It was you that made me see life

You taught me to dream again and see a better reality

And I walked away from edge, from a destination six feet under

So in time I found me

And time made me stronger

I found my destiny

And one day I was blessed to meet you

Your words made me realise that you were special

You seemed so far away

Falling and loving again seemed so impossible

But with you my love, dreams are reality

Unknown

You know my name
And you may have seen my scars
And just like everyone else
You point your finger 

All you know is my name
And you think you know, that you have seen it all
I can assure you, you have seen nothing at all
Once you knew the color of my eyes

But all you know now is my name
You've looked into my eyes
But you never took a moment
To look into my soul

Souls which were destined to met

He was born in the 50's and she grew up in the 90's

A different generation, but still faith brought them together

And this tale has nothing to do with affection

Just two souls who met on purpose

To inspire and to share

A moment to cherish

Surrounded by the silence and nature

All they had were the words that spilled out of their mouths

The smell of his cigarette and the sound of the playing dogs

And sure there was a connection between the two

A unknown feeling, a conversation something more than just a

how do you do

And all I wonder about and perhaps you do too

Is this a love story which never was meant to be

Has time put its foot between the doors of faith

Or is it faith that has brought them together just to share

that single moment

I am pretty sure I can call it a moment of joy and happiness

A moment where the world does not exist

A moment of inspiration

Both generations face the fears of growing older and looking back at life

Either way both agreed in one thing

Time was not given to regret

Not now and not then

As they walked back home

He went right and she walked on

They realised that they shared a special moment

Something faith gave them,

For what you may ask?

And the answer is all yours to decide

All I can say is that their paths won't cross that soon

Souls which met in another life, reunited back together

Both born in a different time

but time and faith gave them the chance to meet again

To share wisdom and be ware

Of life and time

But also to have a chance to say

I see you in the after life..

- In memory of -

Meindert

Cold memories

It's the pain what's holding me back

The names I have met

It's the smile I can't forget

The cold memories I see in nightmares

It's the blood in my veins

Which has turned into black

It's the missing puzzle piece

Which is shouting my name

It's the star that has collide

The mirror that has burst

And I, I've lost track of time

In time I've lost me

From soul to soul

A soul so genuine

So sincere

You give, all you want to do is share

Give the love and share the moments with the world,

With the soul you love

In a world which is unfair

A world that is fearful

A world that is so closed

A world that is heading to self destruction

Its for the souls like you to stay true

To give and dare to be crushed

To share and never regret

To walk on and walk with the souls who deserve to be on your path

Souls like yours open up minds

Opened me and show me that I'm not alone

You opened my soul, my eyes

You set foot on my path

Our path that has been crossed and will travel many miles

Cause souls like ours set course to opportunities,

To life, to friendship, to love and to freedom

To a friend

I want to hold you in my arms
Close enough to make you feel
What you do to my heart

You ask me who I am
The best way to show you is to take your hand
And walk you through my dreams

I found comfort in the way
You embraced who I am
You gave me the freedom to be myself
I told you my secrets and showed my fears